718.1 Miles

Tonight it is beautiful outside...it's about 60 degrees, crickets chirping, and the sky is a beaming black blanket of velvet with many beautiful stars shining so very far away. I'm sitting out here in the middle of the night curled up in a blanket with my beautiful laptop that despises me, trying to write down my thoughts of this amazing day. It was amazing, and I've been living the pre-college/post-high school grad life very well. I stay up all night, sleep all morning, eat whatever I can find in my parents kitchen, don't have a schedule, and I can pretty much do what I want all the time. It's fabulous!
One thing that's not so fabulous is all the good-byes I've had to say over the past week because I leave for school on Friday. I never realized how hard it is to say bye to someone you see all the time and to understand that you won't see them again till Christmas...it's alot tougher than I thought it would be. I also found out how far away I will be...718.1 really long miles! I've kinda been freaking out this week knowing I will be that far away, on my own, with complete strangers, actual teachers who give out real assignments, and I will just have to deal with life. I've heard that college will be the best time of my life, but it will also be the hardest. I'm sure I'm going to be the girl who sits on the floor in the bathroom in the middle of the night crying because someone said something that reminded me of my family--or something dumb like that. But I think I am ok with that. I need to be on my own for awhile and do my own thing, and I think it will be great as long as keep my focus on God and my relationship with him. Don't get me wrong...as much as I am freaking out about college I am excited too! And tonight as I am sitting here I am filled with an incredible peace that I know is the Spirit...something I've only felt once this week besides now. I've let the craziness of the pre-college drama rule my life in a way, so I'm trying to get my focus back on letting God do want he wants with me. I know he will be there, when I am sitting in the college bathroom crying my eyes out like a baby because I am lonely. He will be there while I am studying for a test, or whatever the college kids are doing nowadays. He will be there when I am sick and don't have my sisters to complain to. HE WILL BE THERE NO MATTER WHAT, and I'm kind of excited for all these horrible experiences to take place so I can depend on my Savior even more...I know that sounds weird, but it's true. 2 Corinthians 9:8 says, "And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work." God will work it all out for me, as long as I do everything to his glory and let him be in control....I know he will do amazing things in my life in Florida.
And the only reason I can leave everyone I love and care about to go 718.1 really long miles away is this: Deuteronomy 31:6 "...the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."